I was lost in my own world, I forgot I was sitting, waiting for an interview. In no time, it was my turn. I walked to Hakeem’s office, closed the door and took a seat.
“You even sat before I could say sit”, he said.
“Do you want me to stand up?” I asked.
“Yes”, he said nonchalantly. I thought he was joking, then realised he wasn’t. I stood up.
“You may take a seat”, he smiled.
“Do I have to remain silent until you tell me to talk?” I asked.
“Are you trying to be funny? Is this a joke to you?”
“Not at all, I -”
“Shut up! I’m your boss, I deserve to be treated with respect, do you understand?”
“Yes”
“Good. Tell me about yourself”
“What do you want to know?”
“I said tell me about yourself, you have 5 minutes to sell yourself”
“I’m originally from East London. I was raised by my grandmother, I have a younger brother, cousin -”
“You’re boring me. Tell me about your abilities, education and your role model”
“I’m a fast learner, I’m computer literate, creative, I have good people skills, I can work efficiently with a group, I have matric, I passed with a Bachelor’s Degree and my role model is my grandmother. She inspires me to be a better person, we grew up without much but she made us feel like we had everything. Her love filled the house, it made it warm -”
“Thank you. Tell me about what job you would like”
“I’d like to be an admin”
“Hmm. Everyone wants to be an admin, why should you be one?”
“Because I believe I have the necessary skills to be one”
“What necessary skills?”
“I’m creative -”
“Everyone is creative”
“You didn’t let me finish”
“Go on”
“And the club won’t spend much money paying for outside people to make posters”
“Money isn’t a problem”
“But it still needs to be saved. I can teach the girls”
“How do you know they’re not good with computers like you or even better than you?”
“I work with these girls everyday. They always come to me for help”
“Your 5 minutes is almost up. Any final words?”
“If you make me one of the admins, I promise to work my butt off. I will utilise my skills to -”
“Time’s up. Call the next person”
“Just like that?”
“Time’s up”
“Okay, have a nice day”
“You too, Yoliswa”
I left Hakeem’s office feeling uncertain, Vanessa was the next person up, I wished her luck. My head was spinning. The thought of Jabu’s body coming back to haunt me, I thought I passed that stage. I went to the bathroom to vomit. I locked myself in one of the stalls and cried. I heard voices, I kept quiet.
“Vanessa says this works and she tried it on someone”, I heard a girl talking to another. I couldn’t quite figure who, I don’t know everyone to the point of distinguishing their voices.
“She’s gonna make big bucks with these babies”, one girl added. They were in the bathroom for a few minutes then left, I waited a few minutes then left too.
5 hours later.
Everyone was waiting for the results, Hakeem said he will put up the results on the wall. The girls nervously waited for the results. Hakeem put up the results and everyone ran to check their names. I waited for the region to clear up. Vanessa came back saying she got the admin job, Vixen too. Well, Vixen only got that job because she’s Hakeem’s girlfriend. I went to check my name and I got the bartender job, I couldn’t believe my eyes, not even maintenance. Hakeem went to join us, they clapped for him, I just folded my arms.
“As you can see, there are a few guys with us. They work here now. I will call the names of those in charge of these respective jobs. Steven you’re in charge of the admins, Jason you’re in charge of maintenance and Robbie you’re in charge of the bartenders”, he said.
We looked at each other.
“How is this possible?” I looked at Vanessa in astonished.
“Yoliswa, you look like you have something to say”, said Hakeem.
“No, I don’t”, I said.
“Come on, stand up. Share what you just said to Vanessa”, he said.
“Well, I said how is this possible”, I said.
“What?” He asked.
“That people we don’t even know are in charge”, I said.
“Who’s the boss here?” He asked.
“Martin”, Vanessa stood up.
“Where is he?” He asked.
“Obviously not here because he put you in charge”, said Vanessa.
“Yes, I’m in charge. I’m the boss around here. I make the decisions. I appointed you and I can fire you”, he said boasted. Vanessa sat down with a smirk, I sat down.
“Did I tell you to sit down?” He asked me.
“No”, I said.
“Remain standing”, he said. He continued talking to everyone, while I stood up. I felt controlled and humiliated. I don’t know what I did to this man. He finally dismissed everyone, he said everyone can go home, the time was 14:00. He still demanded me to remain on that same spot, Vanessa got out and came back again.
“Are you enjoying this power? Is this a power trip?” She asked Hakeem.
“This has nothing to do with power but everything to do with respect”, he said.
“What bad did she do to deserve this humiliation? Why are you being mean to her? She used to be your friend”, said Vanessa.
“Is this supposed to make me guilty? People now know not to mess with me. People will look at her and say, I don’t want to be in her position therefore, I won’t do anything that will put me in that position”, he said.
“Being with someone else is disrespectful to you?” I finally found my voice. “I watched you every night dancing with her, your eyes always fixed to mine. Even when I wasn’t watching I felt you looking at me. I liked it, I know you did to. The thought of someone liking you from a distance yet intimate every time our eyes locked. Now I like someone else, you can’t bare the thought of me liking someone else because I won’t look at you the same way. Now I’m disrespectful because I chose someone else. You can call me a gold digger, a bitch and every word there is to make me feel small, I don’t care”, I cried.
Hakeem didn’t say anything, he just left. Vanessa comforted me. I called Walter and told him, I plan on having lunch with him, he was happy to hear that. Vanessa took a cab home, I called Madala. Walter said he’s heading to La Concuna, Madala drove there. When I got there, no one but Walter was there. I smiled.